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Remember, the heart monitors and the nurses coming in at all hours of the night checking to see if you did any damage to heart? You almost did. God, you were so close. 

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It takes strength to feel the things you do so heavily. I just need you to channel that strength into not an outlet of self-destruction but rather finding a solution.

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Sure… I’m smart, beautiful, driven, and a mom – but I still wanted to die.

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We all have weak moments in our lives. Everyone has a story and experiences that they have gone through that made them who they are today. I believe that as much as attempting suicide was a horrible experience, it has helped shape me into who I am today.

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No matter how much society has claimed to be enlightened, people still don’t understand what it is to be depressed, suicidal, anxious, or mentally ill.

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Red. This dress was red.

Except it wasn’t.

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This little boy saved his father’s life.

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But this time, the depression was worse than I could have ever imagined and I couldn’t handle it. I got my dad’s 45 caliber gun and shot myself in the stomach.