Convincing yourself that it’s necessary to stay at a job you hate in order to pay the bills, to show up to work every day feeling exhausted before it’s even begun – thereby allowing yourself to confuse ‘misery’ with ‘responsibility.’
When anxiety comes back, I feel her in the morning. I feel heavier when I wake up. She feels heavy in my mind. I try to ignore her so she will leave. So she knows that she is unwanted here. But it isn’t long before she has tied herself up with me again.