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We have this tendency to take relatively sparse bits of information and withdraw from them a much, much wider context based mostly on non-concrete stuff like our hopes, expectations, and interpretation of the ‘tone’ of emails, IMs, and texts.

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It’s weird that my self-consciousness is experienced anticipatorily and retroactively because I don’t feel self-conscious/ self-shamed/ embarrassed while I engage in such behavior that I later find unseemly. So in effect there’s this weird threshold of perception/ non-perception; before I cross the threshold, I am aware of myself, but once I cross the threshold, I become unaccountable to myself.