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For some people, 2020 has been the worst year on record, but for me, it was a year of transformation and raw honesty and self-awareness.

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If it’s weighing on your mind, if every drink, every night out, every bottle seems like another added weight onto your shoulders that you’re struggling to hold up…it’s alright to set a bottle or two down and walk away.

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When I am drunk, my self-control goes out the window. I will tell you how I actually feel. I will let down my guard. I will be honest about the things sober-me is too scared to admit.

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I find it amusing that the top recommendation to help you stop obsessing about your drinking is to obsess over drinking even more.

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Just knowing I haven’t put alcohol into my body makes me feel healthier, like I’m doing my beautiful body a huge favor.

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Like anybody else who’s spent a morning on the bathroom floor after a night at the bar, I’ve sworn off drinking countless times.

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This isn’t about what’s fair. It’s about what we can afford. And we can’t afford to pretend it’s fine that everything we do or think is somehow wrong. We can’t afford to act like it’s okay that “Girls can do anything!” got translated somewhere along the line into “Women must do everything.” We can’t afford to live lives we have to fool our own central nervous systems into tolerating.

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Addicts are particularly afflicted but it also means we are especially prone to shininess. The further down you’ve gone, the further up you get to go.