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It matters what the people in your close circle think.

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Maybe she expected you to follow through because she never would have canceled on you and come up with an excuse.

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No matter how much you cry, the exit doesn’t feel any closer. It doesn’t feel any easier as time goes on. In fact, it gets harder.

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I want to tell you that your body is a beautiful vessel that holds you, that keeps your pain inside, and keeps you safe.

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After the time I spent alone, and the time I spent healing and rebuilding myself—I am left with one belief stronger than everything that’s happened. I believe that despite all odds that say otherwise, that people are inherently good.

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I’d say a good day for me is probably just feeling ‘normal.’ Not overwhelmingly happy, not sad or anything, just kind of more happy than usual, but not as happy as others around me.

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We became best friends in what felt like an instant. I loved her with my whole heart, and I know full well that she loved me with all of hers. I promised her that I was not just going to keep getting help while she was alive, but that I would continue to fight once she was gone.

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There are days I wish I wasn’t made of so many painful things. Of secrets and heartache and tiredness and stories that make the people who have dared to stay and love me’s bones quake.

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She’s always fine. She has no time not to be. They’re counting on her, because she always has her shit together. She’s always fine.