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There’s another world where I don’t feel like this. Where my heart fits into my chest right and I’m not terrified of anything that makes it feel alive. But I live in a world where I stopped being able to tell the difference between heartbeat and heartache. 

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Please, whatever you do still believe.

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I wanted to believe that what we had was real. I wanted to believe that I would be the one to make you believe in commitment. I just really wanted to believe you.

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I hope you take care of your heart. And that you let go of all of the people who play with it.

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Do I want the happy spouse and white picket fence? Or do I want the adventure and the chance to leave before I am left?

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I wish I knew what you were saying. I wish I knew what you were thinking.

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I’m spinning drunk, spinning dizzy. Picking at hangnails like I can dig my way to you.

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She wants more than a maybe and a gray area and an undefined.

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I used to carry that badge with honor—Look at me, I’ve got this old soul, older people like me, they talk to me, and I’m not just some kid to them.

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To the ones who are always surrounded by people yet feel alone as hell from the inside.