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In your childhood home, nothing was ever good enough.

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Even if their arguments were about you, they weren’t because of you. You didn’t do anything wrong. Their inability to communicate and cooperate isn’t your problem. 

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At dinner at the Grand Canyon, Dad asked me why I was staring at him. “You’re grayer,” I said, not telling him that he reminded me a little of Dustin Hoffman in Death of a Salesman. “I got old,” Dad said. “At my next birthday – I can hardly believe it – I’ll be 69 years old.” Dad remarked that the block we were on had been his territory when he worked for that private investigating firm while he was still in high school.

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CAPRICORN: A notebook, sketchbook, or crossword puzzle book.

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1. You’re born with a family. You can’t choose your family.

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I miss you Dad when you use to always know that I will find the love of my life. I miss you Dad when I know she’s here and you’re not.

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When I was play arguing with my 7 year old and she said she wished she was dead like my miscarried baby. Fucking savage and a brat.

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When my four year old found a pair of scissors at Kindergarten and cut the school phone line.

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I am not hung up on the past, nor does this particular story have any bearing on my life now, except it did become a pattern of what was to come.

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Sometimes, it’s better to see everything and say nothing.