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I’m writing this for you to test if this will work. I’m writing because I care about you and I’ve been worried about you.

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You don’t know how to relax anymore or go out with friends. You convince yourself that you have to work on your days off, in order to be the best. You work day and night even on holidays and weekends. You don’t know how to stop.

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It comes out of nowhere.

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I am not insane or crazy, this is real. I need you to be my advocate because I want to be an advocate for others so they know they are not alone. This is tough. This is exhausting. But this is me and it always will be.

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If you are struggling with anxiety or panic attacks, talk with your doctor to develop a management plan.

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You hate small talk because there is no way out of it. There’s no escape. There’s no way to plan what they are going to say or ask of you. It makes you incredibly nauseous and sweaty. It can even cause you to have a panic attack. 

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You’re terrified to tell people about these thoughts because you don’t want them to think you would actually do any of them. 
It’s embarrassing and scary to admit that you have these thoughts that pop up in your head when you don’t believe in them. You aren’t crazy or psycho or a serial killer. It’s an illness. Get the help you need. 

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I can’t help this chemical imbalance. I can’t make it go away. So it’s true, I’d be a completely different person without my anxiety. I’d be brighter and shinier, like brand new shoes from DSW. I’d be so vibrant.

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Shopping for random shit on amazon.

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I need for anxiety not to control my entire life. I need for myself to be stronger.