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You wondered why so many people would smile at you, but my love, it was to see your smile light up the air between two strangers. You were radiant and didn’t even know it.

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Are we addicted to this pursuit? Are we in love with a story of the already but not yet?

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You can tell people it’s because I read too much into things or that I was just being a stupid girl or whatever it is you need to say to rationalize this, but I hope you know that isn’t the truth.

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I found your work uniform shirt. The one you took off your back the night you broke up with me, all because I wanted something of yours to remember you by.

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Don’t forget the times you were sad, and the times you were really angry, and all the times you were so happy you were almost scared.

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I still cannot believe that someone I spent so few nights with has impacted me so much.

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You think about what would have happened if we would have met when you were ready.

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But I can no longer live under the weight of our deafening silence, wishing I could reach out, constantly pulling back.

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Everything was right, except for maybe me.

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Up until yesterday, I was fine.