You didn’t just lose a person. You didn’t just lose a girlfriend. You didn’t just lose a friend. You lost your opportunity to have a future with me. You lost a lifetime. A lifetime you could have had…with me.
You have no idea how much I want to kiss you. How much I want to run my fingers through your hair and pull your head closer to mine so we can lock lips.
Maybe one day I won’t have to miss you. Because you’ll be here.
I am so sorry.
I ache so sweetly, for all the untouched places, for all the lips
I haven’t yet kissed.
All I ever did was love you with all my heart.
I hung onto the words you said, The promises you made but didn’t understand then, The future we spoke about; One you no longer want to be in.
I miss you when I hop in my car and strap in my seatbelt. I miss you right before I close my eyes and fall asleep. I miss you at 4AM.
“Your sister overdosed baby” is what I heard my father say, my heart shattered, it ached, and my world went grey.
“I miss you even when I’m not horny.”