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Wanting to talk openly about our mental illness is not attention-seeking.

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I’m secretly terrified that any children I have will wind up with serious mental illnesses.

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I feel sick and possessive and jealous. I want to throw myself off something high. I want to break things loudly. I want to go to his place and smash his windows. I feel out of control but I know I can’t do any of that because I’m worse. I have no claim on him whatsoever.