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The Doomsday Clock
is set at 10 seconds to midnight,
and all I can think about
is how I’m running out of time
to tell you all of the things
I never got to say.

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I can play music to drown out the sound of your laugh. I can fill my time and my mind with someone new so I don’t have to be haunted by your face.
But I can’t erase your hands.

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You may have found that no matter where you go, you cannot be planted.

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I pray that someday down the road you miss me so much it’s unbearable 

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I miss you the way I would miss a limb. It feels like I’m walking around missing something essential to my being, something I’m meant to be with.

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I want to text him in November and ask how his mother is doing. If he has things, he’s thankful for.

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I could sit here and list everything I remember and ache to relive, but the truth is that I miss the entirety of your being. Every bit of you — the excellent, the awful, and everything else in between.

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The fact of the matter is that I can miss you but remain without you for the rest of time.

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The world continues to turn, but yours and mine are now different. Now there can only be hope that, maybe someday, the universe will again conspire for us to meet.

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You’ll miss the stupid jokes she made and the way she laughed at them, at herself. You’ll miss how understanding and real she was, even when you didn’t always deserve it.