Most of us are scared to talk about our feelings, to be vulnerable because we don’t know what would happen.
At the end of the day, we only have ourselves.
Even though I’m an independent woman who doesn’t need a relationship to feel fulfilled, the truth is that I don’t want to fall asleep alone. I want someone beside me, holding me tight, comforting me when I jolt awake from nightmares.
Don’t you dare think you can close our door, but keep it opened just a crack, in case you want to return when your legs aren’t as unsteady.
So when I bare my body instead of my soul
Know I am opening myself up to you the only way
I have ever known.
Let 2018 be the year where you grow truly comfortable with yourself. Let 2018 be the year you can enter a room full of strangers and still feel whole. Let 2018 be the year where you no longer search for love, because you’ve grown to find it inside of yourself.
Our lives are inherently lonely. But to be born human is to be born with capacity to beat back this loneliness the way light conquers darkness. We love so that we may feel less lonely and more permanent.
We try to fill the void. Some write. Some reach for the pill bottle. Others run until their feet blister, work until dawn, or drink until they can’t see. We go to bed with strangers, and enter relationships with completely wrong people.
Please don’t think these feelings are going to remain. You will one day understand that loneliness is an okay feeling. Loneliness is something that you need to feel.
I hope you know that loneliness is not the answer. It’s not where you belong. It’s not what life comes down to.