I hope you know that loneliness is not the answer. It’s not where you belong. It’s not what life comes down to.
Grieving feels like being tangled up, suffocating, choking on your own emotions. It feels like a wave, a tsunami of unknown and uncertain. It feels like falling through space with nothing familiar to land on.
You need to be okay with being alone. You have to accept that you are enough. I understand you want someone in your life. I understand you don’t want to feel alone. But you should be happy when you’re by yourself.
Do you have someone to share this vast loneliness with? Do you have someone to live out this world with?
Tell him everything. Even though he knows everything you want to say. He wants to hear your voice. He wants you to open up to him. He wants you to keep getting closer.
You won’t fulfill your dream of having a happily ever after with him, because if he’s really your perfect match, he would be beside you right now, whispering to your ears, and telling you that you would be okay.
Balance what we want with what we have. Accept that we shall get hurt often, and how we respond to our own hurt would build the relationship around. Allow ourselves to be hurt.
You deserve someone who makes you feel special, every day, consistently. You deserve a person whose happiness is to keep that smile on your face.
You can feel it even when you’re surrounded by people.
Tomorrow’s a new day.
Tomorrow will be better.