So many times I wanted to say fuck you, but the words were swallowed. I’m throwing them back up today. 

If someone can be happy for others who are doing better than them in life, believe that they are confident in their own decisions. 

Can the world handle you with your red heart beating open?

“One makes you feel special; the other makes you feel used.”

“Be willing to accept the pain and feel it. Denying it will only prolong getting to a point you can heal. Don’t rush it. There is no point because it will sneak up and ruin the future. Allow as much time as needed. And do not let anyone tell you how long it should take. Everyone feels things different. Take all the time you need.”

I lie hundreds of ways to almost everyone I come into contact with at my job every day. Because I want people to believe I’m the strong, confident girl boss who isn’t secretly hoping she won’t be found out – for using the restroom to cry some days when it all gets too much. Or maybe not quite having it all together.

When partners check and find nothing — they can feel calmer and relax — which is better for a relationship.

PISCES: You are an extremely loyal friend—that is, up until the moment you find a new lover. Then you forget all about your friends. When you start sleeping with someone, you fall asleep on all your friends.

I want to be remembered for my heart
for the words I draw
that dance
of what it means to be human.

But at least when I look back, I can say that I showed you who I really am. I showed you all of me and it just wasn’t enough for you.