I can see it all so clearly. Like I’m visitor in my own hospital room and my own life.
You don’t need that guy or that girl or that ex. You don’t need someone else who already left to make you feel good. You don’t need his love. You don’t need his heart or his soul or his mind. You do not need their guidance.
I can’t imagine waking up with so much pain
that it drives me to think of leaving.
I learned grief doesn’t just go away, I learned that grief Is natural and it has to be managed carefully and accepted as a part of your life.
Despite everything, I think grief is not something you can quantify with time, you can’t calculate the amount of time it’ll take for you to get over something that happened or the absence of someone important.
The uncertainty crushes you.
Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate the outpouring of love and support that I got. I appreciate the things that people did for me and said to me in order to try to help.
I’m searching for a sign to know that you see me.
You were not ready to wake up every day fighting to hang on and continue with your life without the person who means the most to you.
I wasn’t ready to lose you, I wasn’t ready to live without you.