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We started out on the floor and somehow we ended up in bed. There was a lot of kissing and hugging, and it was very tender and gentle. Sean was so sweet. The first time should be special and this one was. . . Do I feel different? No. I feel more of a man, if anything.

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He has nothing more to imagine or curiosity lingering around in his mind about you. He got what he wanted because you hoped it would make him stay.

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I love the person that I am and the woman that I’ve grown to be. I never want to feel like I n​eed someone. I just want to w​ant t​hem. This feeling helps me from forcing myself into something that doesn’t necessarily fit.

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But I stopped laughing – I stopped breathing – when he looked directly at me and said, “I’m glad I’m doing this with you.” The next kiss sucked out any oxygen I had left, and, for a second, not breathing felt incredible.

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Sex early on shifts the focus away from developing an essential emotional connection, and towards the passionate and intense physicality of a new partner. That’s because it’s easy to be blinded by the love potion — the chemicals, such as dopamine and noradrenaline, which enhance excitement and reward.

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“Lasted about as long as a Ronda Rousey fight.”

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And if you’re awkward like I am, you dance butt naked around your room to “Shake It Off” and shake, like…way too much.

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I squeezed this unknown vessel with question and uncertainty. It was definitely not sexy.

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There is always something that you will look back on and cringe at, if only because the human body isn’t perfect, much less so when it’s under the unpredictable lights of someone else’s bedroom.

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How many times have you ever honestly felt the need to try to impress one of your close friend?