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Make her feel sexy. Make her feel wanted. 

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Bend your fingers once you’re inside, so you can find her G-spot with the tips of them.

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“I guess I’d be open to it. Trying new things in the bedroom is always good.”

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She scooted up towards the head of the bed and I crawled towards her, straddling over her narrow hips. I moved from her mouth to her ears to her neck, catching her skin between my teeth.

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Eventually, after some coaxing, he convinced me. And then he convinced me to take off my bra. I cannot wear it until he tells me I can. He told me to take off my panties. I cannot wear any until he tells me I can.

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Her nails were long – like really long – and pointy, very very pointy. They looked like daggers – except fake daggers, press-on daggers…but daggers nonetheless.

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Somehow he managed to slide his hand under the back of my coat and skirt.

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I remember the shame of her mom walking in shortly thereafter and telling me I had to go home. My shame intensified when, instead of getting angry, my mother gently told me not to take my clothes off at other peoples’ houses.

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Berlin is unabashedly sexual. Ads for couples’ sex clubs were all over, porn played free on the hotel television, prostitution is legal and generally not frowned upon. The sex museum was no exception. I was embarrassed for half a second, until it occurred to me that I should probably abandon my puritan mores at the plaster dongs if I wanted to enjoy myself.

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Do guys really like fingering a girl and do girls really like to get fingered?  These are the important questions I sometimes ask myself.  I have been mulling over fingering for the last two days in an attempt to get to the bottom of it.  I will pen my thoughts as they arise.  Call it ‘thinking out loud’ if you will.