“I have a beautiful apartment. It’s really big. I have my dream job. I lost 50 lbs. I am living the life I always wanted, but I’m lonely.”
What if we normalized affection? Made people feel comfortable, rather than hesitant? Passionate rather than afraid?
I want to be the way I feel, not the way I have to be. I am scared people won’t accept the “me” I hide. I am scared someone very dear to my heart won’t understand me. I am scared of the hate I bestow on myself.
You were one of the brave ones, fighting for love in a world that’s searching so desperately for it, but hides nonetheless.
Anchorage: The longing to grasp a moment between your fingertips, to hold onto the sentences, the words, the memories and keep them with you.
Altschmerz: The strange fear of running out of things to think about. Wondering whether you’ll always ponder over the same issues, same anxieties, same problems, leaving you bored and tired.
Aquarius: Your heart is so beautiful. You are always willing to give, to share, to connect, to be open. There is nothing wrong with wanting to love and be loved.
We cannot move forward until we honor exactly where are at. We have to feel this moment in order to leave it. Once we feel it, we can release it and we can move into our next moment. So let it hurt, but then let it heal.
Pain derives its power from the present. It suffocates you because it doesn’t have a place in your everyday life. As human beings, we always overcome pain. Our survival instincts are fierce.
“Fake it till you make it” is bullshit. You overcome sadness by understanding that you are a human and yes, contrary to popular belief or preference, humans have a vast array of emotions and it is healthy and good to actually feel them.