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After over half a decade of feeling this heavy sense of grief and overall mental discomfort, it becomes your normal. It’s kind of like seeing a coworker you hate every day for years on end. You grow used to it and deal with it, but you pray for the day they put their two weeks in.

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It is a privilege to wake up each day and not have to take medication before you do anything else. It is a privilege to not have to think about antidepressants at all, actually.

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there is a space
i try to fill
with you
your lips
your body
your touch
and nothing else matters 

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I choose to believe that if you can make the conscious choice to get up and go about your day, then you have the choice to decide if the world will break you. 

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I went into a coma due to a combination of my battle with bulimia and an overdose on antidepressants. 

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You robbed me of my adolescence. You were there at every turn to tell me I was not good enough. You made me feel guilty for telling anyone that anything was wrong.

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I used to feel so much shame around using medications, and truthfully I still do, but I am working through it every day and making progress.

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I never fully understood what depression was and what it does to people. But to be more precise, I didn’t want to know because it didn’t matter to me.