It lives in memories of taking Adderall in college and in thinking about that one time I closed my eyes at 3AM and could feel my eyes whizzing around really fast behind their lids and my heart racing and I remember thinking: why do I need this to do what everyone else is doing?
Hello. My name is Hollow. I live inside your soul. Under the layers and layers of skin, and tissue and muscle… all the way down where nothing and everything survives.
Depression is hidden in the jokes, the pauses, the drinks, the late nights, the forced smiles – perfectly rehearsed
Please stop saying that depression is “just a phase” because it’s not.
Depression is feeling as though there’s a piece of you missing somewhere in the world and knowing you’ll never be able to get it back.
Everywhere and nowhere.
Tweet hysterical things like “emotional breakdowns are the new black” in an attempt to make my ambivalence more palatable.
Your partner has just told you they are depressed. And that they are really struggling with it, especially this particular week. You want to be there for them but you don’t know how to.
To those out there that may not have experienced depression or known someone who has, please take the next two minutes and read this.
At times I am not sure I want you to leave.
You have been a loyal companion.
But you see all the destruction you have caused in me.