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We still want to live, it’s just like we don’t know how to exactly.

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Feeling nothing is just as horrible as feeling too much. 

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I can’t keep acting like it’s no big deal when my anxiety and depression show up again because I’m used to it by now. I can’t keep acting like I don’t matter enough to get the help that I need. 

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You stare into the mirror. You look at yourself but you don’t feel like you’re looking at yourself. You can’t process the fact that the human in the mirror is you. You feel disconnected. Numb. You’re either feeling too much or nothing at all.

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I woke up with marks on my wrists. Two vertical, red slashes on each side. They were written with sharpie, but meant to look like self-harm scars.

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If I laugh about how I have no friends and no family and no future, then people won’t pity me. They might not even realize that I am telling the truth. 

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“A girl I found in an AOL chat room tried to convince me that the devil had raped me. And the devil raping wasn’t the creepiest part, she knew where I lived and my parents names and what I looked like.”

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“When SWAT pulled her out, she had completed multiple circumcisions on herself with the scissors, completely cut her nipples off, and had sodomized herself multiple times with multiple steak knives.”