Left for breakfast — ate a breakfast bagel in the sunshine, smelled a pink rose, drank a coffee that is right. Pet a dog for 30 minutes with my one hand, legs draped over the wrong side of a chair. Pet another dog. Lost my keys, found my keys. Hoped across train tracks barefoot. Sat and talked with people who were kind.
Our original unease subsidised as it became apparent the immigration process was more a theatrical exercise than a genuine attempt interrogate, find contra and subversive material. That’s not to say there wasn’t plenty of fanfare; pointing, shouting, clothing and underwear strewn about.
I have a picture of Venice as my wallpaper on my work computer. I float off into a montage scene of me living in that picture: me reading Dickens in a little Italian cafe, sunlight pooling over the pages; me riding a gondola down a rusted canal. How do you fulfill an addiction that draws you out of your life?
The true definition of freedom isn’t just being able to do whatever you want whenever you want. True freedom is being able to feel however you want whenever you want.
I’ve seen SO many others cost themselves big $$$ by not paying close attention to exchange rates.
I want to plant roots but I will do it gradually, I will do it for myself, and I will do it on my own terms.
You’ll be forced out of your comfort zone.
Although I’m usually driven by a burst of energy and excitement when I decide to start over in a new place, I also enter a state of mourning for the old life I’m leaving behind, which in turn becomes a self-driven guilt trip for my own miseries.
It’ll be hard, but it’ll be worth it.
Time to say goodbye, memories, newly packed suitcases, heavier than they were when it all started.