How To Have An Orgasm

Be in love. Be in love with the air you’re unconsciously grasping for and the way you’ve forgotten the names of your body parts, the way every piece of you isn’t a piece at all but just one pulsing organ over which you have relinquished control. Give in. You are a vessel for autonomous cells to prove that they can be trusted, that they don’t need conscious help or guidance or permission to create something earthshaking. Shake. Be in love with how graceful you are when you want to be, how you can’t fathom concerning yourself with the movement of your hips or left arm placement or the right way to cross your legs when you sit, the concept of arms and legs and torsos extinct in these moments. Now, there are no parts, no pieces, no organs that exist independently of each other so don’t think of your dampened Florida-morning skin; don’t feel your heart but know that it’s there, ticking then beating then thumping then losing a battle against the rhythm of your body. See everything in snapshots and portraits until the colors run together, until the world becomes abstract. Do not think of befores, or afters, or right nows, let your mind go blank, go black, think ‘nothing’ so fervently that nothing becomes something, that nothing becomes everything. Add pressure. Let your toes curl under and grab handfuls of flesh in acknowledgment, pinch it and knead it and let it fill the half-moons of your fingertips. Leave your manmade dimples on his back in remembrance, a memorial honoring bodies and biology. Become obsessed with tension and become obsessed with relieving it; become aware of muscles that didn’t exist an hour ago, muscles you didn’t know you had until they became locked in anticipation. More pressure. Lose your feet and your hands and know what their disappearance means (hold it), know their vitality has been redirected and (hold it) it’s coursing through your veins now, heading straight for your fault lines and (hold it) your breath quickens and (let) your eyelids flash wildly as the pressure breaks (go), seismic waves unleashed and reverbed and preventing the world from spinning on its axis

if

only

for

a

second

and now the quake has come and gone and you’re living in aftershock territory, subject to shaking for minutes, hours. Give the hairs on your neck permission to stand down, give your eyes permission to open; let numbness fade from your fingers and toes. Exhale the air you once loved and return it back to the universe, return back to earth. TC mark

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  • Anonymous

    damn girl

  • Srlsy.

    Fucking lameee

    • Anonymous

       You are indeed fucking lame. This was not.

  • aa

    I got chills reading this.

  • Guest

    Exhale the air you once loved and return it back to the universe, return back to earth.-it’s like flying high and landing smoothly. can’t wait to fly with love.

  • http://www.facebook.com/reeves.tash Natasha Reeves

    Breathtaking. 

  • Anonymous

    you go girl

  • Sophia

    you should make this a spoken word. damn.

  • Fer

    wow, great work! 

  • http://www.facebook.com/grc15r Gregory Costa

    Don’t come seeing me.  That’s my best advice. 

  • tasty d-light

    i think i just came

  • A Mcmillan17

    Hot. Need cigarette.

  • Guest

    I’ll have what she’s having

  • Clitty McLabia

    You should write about having multiple orgasms.

  • http://twitter.com/iamthe0nly Jordana Bevan

    i still don’t know how to have one? write more plox :(

  • Lkjhg

    Wow

    • Melissa

      I mean seriously.

  • Guest

    this is the first time i cared to post a comment on TC but i have to :) great job. although i thought it’d be a lot more fun had you not mentioned the subject in the title :P 

  • Somasekorts

    something i couldn’t ignore

  • Asavva

    Fucking perfect!

    must print out and keep forever

  • Coloredarrows

    Wait put some more adjectives in your sentences and it’s perfect.

  • beatrice

    WOW!

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1363230138 Michael Koh

    lose your head LOSE IT and get lost in the fog

  • MARTIN

    i see “Joe Glass” is back in town.

  • shillies

    F*ck yeah!!

  • Sarah

    Wow, Stephanie, this is insanely beautiful and passionate – GREAT job!

  • Mememe

    can i just say wow…

    i almost had one just reading this.

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