I want to love in a way that breaks apart the fears that I’ve held and the walls that I’ve built. I want to love in a way that opens up the blocks that I’ve assembled and makes me feel completely unstable. I want to love in a way that feels like I’m on the edge of something wonderful; to love in a way that makes me want to let go of all that I hold.
I want to connect in a way that invites me to be honest and spill the words that coat my heart and line my throat. I want to connect in a way that feels like there is space for the things that I’m feeling and that there’s room to cry the tears in the depths of my soul or laugh so hard I feel the joy pulse throughout my body. I want to connect in a way that makes friendship feel like family.
I want to grow in a way that makes me answer my own questions and bend in awkward ways to see a new perspective. I want to grow in a way that forces me to rise toward the sky but is equally compassionate about my seasons. I want to grow in a way that allows me to nurture the foundation of my being and emerge tall with sensitivity as my wings.
I want to care about myself in a way that compels me to become my own healer. I want to care in a way that bridges self-doubt and self-love with self-awareness. I want to care in a way that isn’t afraid to unravel in order to bloom. I want to care about myself in a way that doesn’t feel guilty for feeling or ignoring the things that are missing.
I want to live in a way that opens my mind and drives me into unfamiliar places. I want to live in a way that is always learning and never settling. I want to live in a way that collects memories without hoarding feelings. I want to live in a way that surpasses my comfort zone and allows my dreams to color outside of the lines of what society told me was possible.
I want to surrender to being vulnerable and to flow between the sentiments of my soul. I want to surrender to being uncomfortable to become my fullest potential. I want to surrender to what I feel and to the tenderness that lines my skin. I want to surrender to worries of the world and to elevate myself from within. I want to surrender to the present with my heart — fully open.
What is a life if it doesn’t come with feeling? What is existence if it doesn’t consist of knowing both joy and sorrow? What is becoming if it’s not unbecoming at the same time?
There is magic in all of us, and it comes in the form of understanding and embracing our emotions. There is a power in each and every one of us, and it’s in the space between what we feel and what we do. There is a purpose embedded within us, and it is waiting for us to break apart so that it can come to be.
There are boundaries to make, but there are also limits to be broken. There are precautions to take, but there are also frontiers to be reached. There are practical needs, but there is also enlightenment to find. All that we seek is on the other side of unknowing.
So, my love, I ask you… are you prepared to be vulnerable? Are you willing to be uncomfortable? If so, you, my sweet, sweet love, are ready to live.