If God Can Forgive, Then So Can I

I forgive you. I forgive you because you were obviously in a place that made it difficult for you not to do or say the things that you did. I forgive you because you may have understood something in a way that was not correct. I forgive you because I know certain situations make you uncomfortable and you do not really know how to respond. I forgive you when you weren’t there and never made me a priority. I forgive you for only using me to your convenience. I forgive you because I know you were dealing with your own internal battles.

I forgive myself for allowing you to make me feel some type of way. I forgive myself for not letting my strength overpower my weakness. I forgive myself for sitting here and thinking about what hurt me over and over versus trying to find ways to deal with it and let it go. I forgive myself for not always allowing God to walk me through this as I have requested him to do so many times. I forgive myself for my stubbornness that always seems to pop out. I forgive myself for letting this negativity keep me from doing the things I want to do most in this world.

I want to thank you for reminding me how strong I can be when I apply myself. I want to thank you for the resilience I was forced to build within me. I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to really think about some of the things that have gone on around me. Despite the things I felt or the tears I cried, I learned different ways to be strong in such a healthy way. I thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn how to love myself more than anyone else’s words or views of me. Thank you for helping me to learn that putting myself first is okay and no one has to agree with that.

I am so thankful for never giving up, even when I felt my lowest. I am so thankful for remaining human and knowing that it is okay to not be okay. I am thankful for allowing myself to feel some type of way as long as I do not sit and drown in it. I’ll let myself feel what I feel and move on. I thank myself for this journey to forgiveness, because it was not an easy one. That stubbornness would always rear its ugly head sticking to the walls of my mind like glue. I pressed on, and I am so thankful for my own perseverance.

God has forgiven me so many times. People throughout my life have forgiven me so many times. I am not a perfect human, but if God and people in my life can forgive me, I can forgive as well. I can let go and continue to live and grow without feeling like I have to stay in that space of negativity. I can move forward knowing that I can forgive but not forget. I do not have to remain in any relationship or space that does not fuel the positivity in my life. I am free to make that decision as I need to, and so is the rest of the world.

Forgiveness is such a crucial thing in our lives. Unforgiveness will keep us crippled. It does not promote any growth within our lives; it hinders it. We want to grow and be our true authentic selves, not someone stuck in a past that we have not let go or forgiven.