We’ve all been there haven’t we? The one we said we would never fall for or give ourselves to. The man who melts your heart at one touch and one word, and before you know it you’re under his spell. You fall ever so silently and without even knowing. You thought you were in control, you thought you were strong.
You check your walls and find a crack that you quickly try and repair. However, the harder you begin to look; you realize you have waited too long. The wall is already crumbling and nothing you can apply to it will save it. You sit there with the broken pieces thinking how will you ever build this up again?
In the beginning it feels so surreal. You think finally a person who everything fits with, this connection you often dreamt about, it’s real. You fall into each other’s arms so effortlessly. This is it your heart screams.
You’re supposed to follow your heart and your heart told you this feels right. It felt good and it felt like love.
Then it happens. Your hit in the face with the reality that your thoughts and visions with the heart you have fallen for, won’t happen. They explain to you there not ready for this, for a real relationship. Yet they have no problem spending night and night with you again, pulling you in closer. They sit there so innocently playing with your hair, when they are really playing with your heart.
And all you can do is sit there and ask yourself why? After all, you were just an innocent person walking down the street with intentions of finding love someday. It’s a shame isn’t it? I think the biggest tragedy of all is loving someone who has no intention of ever loving you. Forget Romeo and Juliet, this is the biggest gut wrenching thing you will go through in your life.
To this day all I have to ask is why put yourself out there, if you don’t want to give yourself? It’s so selfish to seek affection and love but not return what you receive. If you are lonely then tell them you are lonely, and that filling a void is all you want. Don’t make them think it could turn into something you do not want in your life.
I’m here to tell you I don’t care about your situation that led up to your decisions. How damaged you are, your commitment issues and your shitty past relationship baggage you carry around. You can’t tell me you had no idea what you were getting yourself into when you stood before her, and she stared back into your eyes. Do what you have to do, say what you have to say. But be honest and save us all from the heart break we don’t deserve.