Even Though You Hurt Me I Wish You Well

Five years you kept me playing a game I was never going to win. Five years you wasted my time and I missed out on so much because of you.  But because of you I did meet and become best friends with someone that left this world too soon, and because of that I am forever thankful. But for everything else you caused me well that’s not for me to judge.  I am learning to let go of what I can’t change.  I can’t change what you have done nor do I have to answer for your ways. I only have to answer for me.

Even though you cheat and lied to me and my family I still wish you well.  I am not a person filled or consumed with hatred. I want you to find happiness so that maybe just maybe you want do what you did to me and several others to someone else.  You have so many insecurities and I have finally realized your actions have everything to do with you and not anything to do with me.

I have hurt so many people by allowing your manipulation to interrupt my life and I realized I don’t want to be anything like you.  You say you feel remorse but honestly I just don’t think you do, I don’t think you know how too. I am more mad at myself for believing someone who never had good intentions.  You claim we were/are friends but I think you are delusional on what a friend actually is or how to be one.  Friends don’t tear each other down or mock them just to make themselves feel good.  Friends are always there when you need them-all the time not just when it’s convenient.

Maybe you will treat someone new better because you have destroyed so many reputations with the drama you bring into everything.  I wish you the best in the rest of your life because I am happy in my life and I know good things are yet to come for me.