I Won’t Let You Break Me Again

Pexels, Nickol Hykl
Pexels,
Nickol Hykl

I bet you’re trying to figure out another way to break me, but I’m sorry, it’s not going to work anymore.

No matter what you do, you are not going to hurt me again. Because I am a girl who felt the pain of love in every way possible and still survived.

I still don’t know whether your love was a blessing or a curse, but the one thing I do know is that it made me a better person.

I don’t know why you expected me to be so perfect when you were not even close to perfection. You were the drug I was addicted to, but now there’s no one around, except myself.

At first, I was scared to leave the house, worrying that I might see you and burst out crying, but now I dare you to walk in front of me and watch how I pass you by like a total stranger.

I’ve realized that I can’t water a dead flower and expect it to grow again, so I’ve finally let you go. If you think this imperfect girl is never going to feel loved again, it’s okay. I’m willing to wait for the right person.

The love I had for you was my biggest weakness. Try using it to break me again and you will see how strong I’ve become.

Today, I looked at the mirror and saw how beautiful my smile is and realized how ugly you made me look for the past year. You took away the most precious thing I’ve ever had, my self-respect, but now I have it back. Now I shed tears — not for missing you — but for being happy and free.

I’ve started loving myself to the extent that I loved you and realized how much I miss being loved. That’s why, despite what you’ve done, I’m going to take a chance at falling in love again. I’m willing to take the risk of being heartbroken again. But this time, I promise to take care of myself.

I’m grateful for the pain you put me through every single day. I’m thankful for the sharp words and the lies. But the memories are not important to me anymore.

I’m sorry if seeing my smile is going to disappoint you, because if that’s the case, you are going to get tortured every day.

Thank you for all the times you made me feel so small, so useless, so worthless. Thanks to you I’ve learned how to live. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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