I’m sorry for leaving you when you needed me the most. I’m sorry for never answering your texts or calls when all you wanted to know was how I was doing.
I am sorry for treating you much less than what you ever deserved.
But most importantly, I am sorry for breaking your heart for my own selfish intentions.
I owe you the world and even more than it has to offer.
You have taken the ultimate sacrifice by taking me back into your arms but I want you to know that this time, I am not going anywhere.
This time, I am going to make it right with you. I am going to prove to you that I will never hurt you in the same ways I have in the past. You never deserved it although I am sure to say that I have.
With months of no absolute contact, I began to think.
I slowly began to realize I have taken you for granted. Not just you but your constant love and compassion for me. You have loved me much deeper than any other person I have ever known. And I have hated myself for knowing that fact.
I have hated myself for leaving you unannounced after 3 years of a strong and emotional roller coaster of love – a love that defined everything that I was. But what kind of person would I be to let this mad, passionate love go? What kind of person would I consider myself if I completely let go of the only person who I ever truly loved just because of how hard the situation was?
I wasn’t going to be the person to let this go. I’ve had enough and I am ready for anything that comes my way.
I AM going to love you more than I ever have before. I AM going to show you there is more to us than just what we choose to show.
I AM going to prove to you I love you more than you could have ever imagined. I WILL be the one to never leave you behind again.
Since you loved me through flaws and all, I will look through yours and see nothing but perfection.
I am done being afraid to love you, I am finished being ridiculed for loving you.
I will take any blame thrown my way. I will take any sacrifices in hopes that it will keep us sane. I will apologize and forgive whenever necessary. And I will fight until what I earned is what I have. I will fight for you with full force against any obstacle trying to take me down.
I have let you down time and again, but this time, I promise you, I am not going anywhere.