Our lives are so intertwined in the daily norm of either going to school, going to work, cooking dinner, passing out from the tiredness, and repeating it all over again that we’ve forgotten what it’s like if something changed. Sure, the weekends and occasional holidays provide a short intermission from the never-ending play, but it’s definitely not enough to keep us sane. It’s these times and moments, that we have to look deep into ourselves and rediscover what it actually means to actually live.
I want to live life carefree — no strings attached, no regrets. I wish I could have the feeling back of when I was a kid, the feeling of innocence and happiness, where every day seemed like a new book just waiting to be read. I want to spend the whole day at the park and swing my life away; I want to feel the subtle breeze as I slide down the rusty old slide; I want to swing on the monkey bars until blisters formed on my palms. I want to come home and not worry about the endless work I have to do, and actually do something I enjoy doing. I want my days to be read thoroughly, word-by-word, and not skimmed by.
I want to not be afraid of the unknown. I want to take chances and risks that I have never thought of before. Maybe I should have asked that person out; maybe I should have bought that really expensive item; maybe I should have said something…maybe. I don’t want maybe anymore. I want to take that risk on asking that beautiful girl out even though I may be rejected; I want to buy that first that expensive first class ticket just to experience it for once; I want to stand up for someone that’s been hurt. I want to not fear the consequences for once and just enjoy the now.
I want to learn about the world, about everything, and about everyone. I want to see what it’s like to be diverse, to be open to new ideas, and to experience new moments. I want to experience what people less fortunate experience; I want to help others; I don’t want to take anything for granted. I want to listen to what people have to say, because everyone has a voice that should be heard. I want to bring smiles to others, because a smile is one of the most powerful things in life. I want to be generous and sincere, the way others have been with me. I want to be the best person I can be.
I want a surprising and interesting life. I don’t want to be chained down to mediocrity. I’ve always wanted things, but wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure. But failure is only temporary, the pain is only temporary. It’s the trying that counts. I want to have lost something or someone and get over it than having nothing at all. By trying, there is always that possibility of reaching that goal. I won’t ever stop trying. I want the possibility of knowing the next day I live will be a new adventure, and I don’t want to be afraid of not knowing what lies ahead in that adventure. I want to be free.