I’m Coming To Terms With The Fact That You’ll Always Be A Part Of Me

To be honest, most of the time I feel like I am okay. Most of the time, I feel like I am over you. But when it’s late at night, I don’t know what happens, but I suddenly feel like I am not over you anymore. I just keep thinking about you and I just can’t get you out of my head.

Yes, I am not crying over you anymore, but sometimes when someone says something that reminds me of you, I feel a little hurt again. When a song or a movie scene that we talked about before pops up, I remember you and I miss you a little more.

Yes, I loved you, and I still love you and miss you, but that doesn’t mean that we can get back together with each other. And you know what? That’s okay. It’s okay if I still love you and it’s okay if I still miss you; it doesn’t mean that we should get back together, because sometimes these emotions are just not enough, and sometimes what gets broken between two people is just beyond repair.

I don’t feel bad for feeling the way I do about you, and I know that with time, things will get better. I know that with time, everything that reminds me of you will hurt a little less. I know that my nights will be easier later on, and I know that you won’t be a sad memory anymore; you will just be a memory, and I won’t feel the way I feel right now.

Then I will be truly and honestly over you, and I won’t beat myself for the way I feel right now. I also won’t regret you, because even though I know this will be over soon, you will always be a part of me, and that’s okay too. I think that’s how life works, actually; you meet someone and somehow they become a part of you, even if you let each other go and even if you become strangers later on. They will still always be a part of you, no matter what.

I want to write about you, me, and all of us.

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