I’m letting you go because I trust you.
Everyone is moving on with their lives. Everyone has moved on.
Some of them got married or about to give birth. Got promoted, built a new house, living in a new city and enjoying their lives to the fullest. Not prepared for the unfortunate periods of reality where people around me seemed to be moving on facing better things while me, being left behind. Don’t get me wrong, part of me is happy for them throughout it all but somehow I’m still fixated on what I’ve lost and what I’ve missed.
Until I realized what I have been doing all along. I forgot that there is more to life to celebrate than contemplating the sadness of being alone since we broke up. This is the worst part of loving someone, but it has to happen. And that’s letting you go.
I have never thought it’s so hard to find a solid conviction whether should I try harder or just let this go. I don’t know where this universe will lead us when we’ve parted our ways. It feels like the world doesn’t make sense at all, for I don’t know what am I supposed to do. But I won’t be able to see the good things behind if I will let myself stuck in the idea of without you being by my side.
Believe me, I tried. I just didn’t sit back and watch you slip away from me. I miss you so much and I want you back so badly, but I know that’s not right for either of us. Little by little, I realized that I should not put my happiness on hold for someone who is not holding on to me anymore. I should not keep myself from doing things that will make me happy while waiting for someone whom I didn’t know if he’ll come back.
It’s not gonna be easy. This could be the most painful part of the process. I am letting you go now and while I am mending my broken heart, I will trust you at the same time.
I will trust you because I know you are still capable of trying even if you’re tired. Trying to figure things out what you really want in your life.
I will trust you that you will still choose to take the risk even with the chances of getting hurt again. Taking the risk of doing what you know is right.
I will trust you that you will understand that it’s difficult to stay in love when you tend to lose sight of what matters but still, you choose to fight for it and will find the reason to fight for it.
I will trust you that you will still choose the person you love even if it’s getting harder and harder. Because you know what will truly make you genuinely happy.
I will trust you that you will still listen to the rhythm of your heart even if it sounds crazy. Because that’s the beat that you are looking for even if it stopped for a second.
I will trust you that you will face your own fears and start a new life again with the person you really love. Because that is how it is supposed to be.
I will trust you that you will have the courage to speak not only what’s on your mind but also what’s in your heart. Because you already know what it is that you really want.
I will trust you that you will still do what is right even if you’re in a world full of wrongs.
And lastly, I’m letting you go because I trust you. I trust you, that you will find your way back home even if it will take you into a rough road.