It was almost a year when the word ‘us’ existed. I could still remember that surreal feeling when your lips touched mine and the warmth I felt every time I was with you. You were the first person I actually thought was the one for me. But sadly, you left me in a speed of light.
You left me without even saying goodbye. Leaving my heart-broken and my eyes full of tears. Days without you felt like years of agony and loneliness. Mornings made me feel listless and nocturnal, while evenings made me binge-watch of our memories together.
I kept on clinging to those memories of us, to the point where I still want you back. I really do and I still do. But chasing you and asking you to come back to me felt like running inside a loop that never ends. Letting you go was out of my vocabulary, but if forcing you with me would only make you feel unhappy, then, I’ll let you go.
I just want you to know that after all, we have been through; without rue, I will always love you.
I will always love how you made me feel so warm and safe whenever I’m with you. I will never forget those days where your smile is only for me to see and how you make me want to dive in those beautiful eyes of yours every time we stare at each other.
I will always love the pictures that we took together, because those are our shared memories that I will treasure as long as I live. People may call me a masochist, but I don’t care because that is how much I love and miss you.
I will always love your cooking and your passion to reach your goals. We both know how important those dreams to us, and I want you to know how proud I am of you. Thank you for being one of my inspirations.
I will always love that about you, how you made me see the world in a different way. Thank you for teaching me that there’s more to love than physically being together. Thank you for trusting me with your heart and for investing a part of your life with me. I will be forever grateful for that.
What we had been was something most people can’t understand, but I’m still glad it was you. I am happy that I was able to experience love with you because everything that we had been was magical. If I could turn back time, I swear I’d still choose you. Maybe someday we’ll be together again when the time is right, but now isn’t our time.
I am now slowly letting you go and letting my heart heal. I will take my friends’ advice to focus on myself and love myself a bit more because that is what I forgot when we were together. I am going to focus on being successful and competent by myself, like how I was before I met you. I am going to let myself be my top priority instead of depending on another human being. And I am praying to find the love and happiness that we had or something even better.
I pray for you to have it too.