To The People I Hurt While I Was Hurting: I’m Sorry

Every now and then, I know it’s wrong to blame or hurt someone just because I was hurting. Maybe saying sorry wouldn’t mean that much, telling the truth couldn’t erase what has been damaged. But let me write this for you.

This is to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.

I’m sorry if I wasn’t paying attention to all the beautiful stories you were telling me. I know you just wanted to lighten up my mood but I was so occupied with the stressful days of mine, that I couldn’t appreciate what you’ve been doing for me.

I’m sorry if I spoiled your day with all the rants I’ve been telling you every day. I know how hard it is to keep on listening to someone who’s so sad and angry at the same time. Believe me, I’m tired of being like that too.

I’m sorry for being so stubborn that I didn’t listen to your advice. I know that you only want what’s best for me, and here I am being so arrogant and all knowing who ended up being an ugly person.

I’m sorry for being so mean. I know my words are like sharp knives piercing through your heart every time you hear me say cruel things to you when I’m so mad and frustrated. I didn’t mean those words, I swear. It’s just that I cannot control my emotions when I’m so mad.

I’m sorry for snubbing you and not talking to you at all. I know I’m being selfish and rude, but you see, sometimes I really want to be alone when I’m not in the mood to talk about my problems.

I want you to know, how sorry I am every time I hurt you. I am deeply hurt knowing that I caused so much pain to the people who mean the world to me. I just thank God for blessing me with these people who still love me at my worst.

To you whom I’ve hurt while I was hurting, thank you for staying in my life and loving me just the same. TC mark

She writes.✍️

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