I don’t know you’re planning for me. I don’t know how the next few months will unfold but I’m counting on you to give me the strength and patience I need to get through it.
I don’t know if you will answer my prayers or if you will keep taking me on another ride I wasn’t prepared for.
I don’t know if you will give me a break or another difficult test.
I have been trying to handle everything in the best and wisest way possible. I’ve been trying to connect all the dots and understand the bigger picture and follow the signs you’ve been sending me but I admit that I’m tired.
My brain is tired. My heart is tired. My soul is tired.
I’m tired of the same patterns. I’m tired of the same lessons. I’m tired of the same rollercoaster.
I don’t know what the future holds but I’m ready for things to change. I’m ready for my life to finally start making sense. I’m ready for peace. I’m longing for stability.
I know that either way, I’ll be fine. That either way, I’ll count on you. I know that you will guide me through the hard times like you always do but I guess I’m asking for leeway this time. I’m ready for a miracle to lift all the heaviness and all the burdens.
I’m counting on you this time but in a different way. Counting on your generosity. Counting on your forgiveness. Counting on your magnificent surprises. Counting on your mercy.
I don’t know what the future holds but I want it to be brighter and better than what I had imagined.
I want all those wishes I asked you for. All those impossible dreams I once believed in. I want my life to be this marvelous story in the making.
I don’t know if that’s how you see it too or if that’s what you want for me but I’m counting on you to turn it all around. To bring my wishes closer. To push my pain away.
I don’t know what the future holds but I’m putting my trust in you and I know that you don’t disappoint those who put all their faith in you.
I will never know for sure how things will pan out but I can only hope that your timing is aligning with mine this time. That this is the time for my prayers to be answered and my angels to be released.
I don’t know what the future holds but all I know is that there’s nothing you can’t do. There’s nothing you can’t fix. That you are the only one who can turn everything around in the blink of an eye.