I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe again. It’s okay to believe that someone finds you adorable and special. It’s okay to believe the sweet words someone tells you instead of trying to find the lies in their words. It’s okay to believe that someone wants you the same way you want them. I’m slowly learning that history doesn’t always repeat itself. That love doesn’t always mean tears, heartbreak and rejection. That for once, a happy ending is right around the corner.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to trust again. Trust that you can be enough for someone and they won’t have to look away. Trust that you don’t have to compete for their love and affection because they already know your worth. They already know your value. Trust that sometimes they’re the ones afraid of losing you. Trust that sometimes your biggest fears are theirs too. I’m slowly learning that trust doesn’t always have to be broken and that every now and then a person can promise you the world and actually gives it to you.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to be happy again. It’s okay to let the happiness linger and the butterflies in your stomach dance. It’s okay to enjoy being happy without wondering when it will fade away or how long it will last. It’s okay to believe that it could last, that it’s not that elusive dream you’ve been chasing anymore. It’s okay to believe that happiness found you and it wants to stick around this time.
I’m slowly learning that its okay to love again. It’s okay to share your heart with someone and show them who you really are. It’s okay to have deep conversations at 3 am in the morning baring your soul without trying to conceal the darkest and most vulnerable sides of you. It’s okay to give. To spread the kindness, love and compassion you’ve been suppressing all these years. It’s okay to take a chance on someone, to hand your heart and your secrets and your innermost feelings to them because they deserve it too. They deserve the kind of love you’ve been missing. They deserve someone to give them their all.
I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to love again without thinking about how or when it will end. I’m slowly learning that it’s okay to believe in love one more time without trying to protect my heart from being broken. It’s okay to trust again that someone can truly love you and stay with you every time you think they’re going to leave. I’m slowly learning that sometimes love stays and it exceeds all your expectations.