The Day I Leave

God & Man

The day I leave will be the day I pack my bags and drive away without saying goodbye. I’ll leave knowing I’ve waited long enough. I’ve tried. I’ve loved with all my heart and there’s nothing more left in me to give. The day I leave will be the day a lot of people are waiting for. The day I leave will be the day people celebrate my resurrection. Knowing that I’ve finally found myself. Knowing that I’ve finally remembered my worth.

The day I leave will be the day I can’t forgive anymore because I’ve forgiven a lot more than I should. I tried to let go of all the grudges I was holding. I tried to cleanse my heart and love again like you never hurt me. I tried to understand where you’re coming from and put myself in your shoes but nothing served you well. Nothing made sense to me.

The day I leave will be the day my body is screaming to recover from all these wounds and these bruises caused by your words. The day I leave will be the day I begin to rebuild everything you’ve destroyed.

The day I leave will be the day you ask yourself if I even liked you because I will leave quietly. I will leave without making a scene. I will leave throwing everything you gave me behind including the memories. I will leave without taking a single picture of us. I will leave and you will never hear from me again.

The day I leave will be the day you sit with your demons trying to figure out how you pushed the only person who loved you away. How you made the one person who wanted to see you happy so miserable. The day I leave will be the day you have to unravel all the ugly truths about yourself and you’ll wonder how I tolerated them or how I tolerated you.

The day I leave will be the day I move on because I’ve been holding it all in. I’ve been imploding for years and forcing a smile every day. The day I leave will be the day I tell people about everything I’ve been hiding. It will be the day I find my freedom and my voice again. It will be the day I move on and forget you. It will be the day I lose you and find myself. The day I leave will be the day you ask yourself if I’ll ever come back but I’m never coming back. The day I leave will be the day I walk away forever. TC mark

Rania Naim

Writing. Living. Loving. Dreaming. Healing. Evolving.

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