This Time, I Want To Believe Your Lies

Nishe
Nishe

I want to believe you when you say I’m the only one
I want to believe you when you say I’m special
I want to believe you when you call me beautiful
And I want to believe that you understand me
I’ve lived my whole life questioning every single compliment
I’ve lived my whole life doubting every single word
But this time,
I don’t want to question you 
This time,
I don’t want to be so hard on myself

I want to believe the way you look at me
I want to believe that eyes never lie
I want to believe that you’re sure about me
Because you just know
I want to believe that you won’t change your mind
Because you can’t help but fall
Every time you see me
I want to believe you’ll stick around
Because you want to
Because you want me

And I want to believe that you’re different
Because I can’t handle more of the same
Even if you’re not
I want to believe that you will be
Because I’m worth it
I want to be believe that I’m worth it

This time,
I don’t want to be scared
I want to believe your lies
So you can eventually believe them too
I want to believe that they’re not lies
That they’re the truth
This time,
I want to believe you’ll stay
This time,
I want to believe that
I’ll never have to say goodbye. TC mark

Rania Naim

Writing makes me feel alive. Words heal me.

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