See Me For The Girl I Am, Not The Girl I Was

I never thought I would be that girl. The girl that just goes off and falls off the deep end. And these past couple of days have kept me struggling with my emotions about it. Dear future love, that is not who I am today. I’ve done a lot of things I shouldn’t have done.

And I’m not gonna tell you them all on the first date. It’ll probably take me a while to open up to you. But give me a chance. I won’t intentionally break your heart. I had my first relationship and things didn’t work out, obviously. But now I know how to jump right in. Granted, I’m not going to be perfect. But maybe I’m perfect to you.

Maybe you have a damaged past too and you’re my Mr. Perfect. I believe that all the hurt we’ve been through will only make us stronger. Into the people we are today; perfect for each other.

Currently, I’m curled up under my wooly blanket, sipping peach tea, about to watch a Grey’s Anatomy marathon. I would love to do those sort of things with you. We can go out on Tuesday to go dancing too. Heck, I’m up for anything. I’m not gonna hook up with you though. That’s not the person I am.

I promise to be good to you and listen to your every need. Even if I can’t do what you ask of me, I will do my very best. I’m the type of girl who will go to the ends of the earth for someone I love. You’re no exception. And I hope you’re the same type. Because I have a habit of falling too hard when the other feels nothing.

I’m not one of those types of girls that just waits around for a man either. So I apologize in advance if I don’t see that you like me first. Sometimes I’m oblivious or I just like to deny myself that feeling because I don’t want to be hurt. But I’m hoping you’ll be the one who won’t hurt me on purpose. Sometimes it’s hard to wait for you. But I know that God is molding you into the person I’m supposed to be with. The one who could be the one. Or maybe you’ll just be another guy and that’s okay.

You might just be another learning experience, but I’m ready for that. I’m not asking for you to drop down and pop that question right after we meet. But don’t make me regret feeling something for you. Be my hero. That’s all I’m asking. Love me for me. See me for the girl I am, not the girl I was. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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