Thank you for teaching me that changing myself and altering who I was will never be the answer. Because you made me feel like I’d never be enough, I was able to be enough for myself.
I fought with myself for months trying to combat my weight and please some guy that I felt obligated to be with. He was familiar and he reminded me of home. But what wasn’t familiar anymore, was who I was.
You’re reflecting on the past, which won’t ever be again. Even if they were to leap back into your life, they wouldn’t be the same, and neither would you.
I pushed him as much as I could out of his comfort zone and into mine because that thought of how I had always thought love should be. The thought that maybe he would change and maybe I could have the best of every angle, blinded me.