I Will Always Be The Girl You Couldn’t Love

Everton Vila
Everton Vila

I saw you holding her hand, smiling at her and being lost in her eyes.

I stood there the whole time just to see you the way you looked at her and to imagine how it would have felt to be in her place, to be the one who gets to hold your hand, look into those sparkling eyes and to get lost in your eyes while you get lost in mine.

But the truth is, I wasn’t in that place nor will I ever be.

I will always remain the girl standing on the balcony of the first floor while you stood with her, hand in hand, on the ground floor. I will always be the girl who hoped that, for a moment you stop looking into her eyes and look slightly up just to see me standing there, smiling a little because you found the love of your life but tearing a bit apart because I wasn’t the love of your life.

I will always remain the girl who hoped that you fall for her like she has fallen for you.

I couldn’t take it anymore and so I took a step back and slowly went into the room, where I was heading before seeing you, while trying to brush off what I saw. But the truth is, no matter how hard I have been trying since that day, I never actually managed to forget it.

Even after a year, that day still manages to haunt me whenever I close my eyes. Even after 365 days, even after being far away from that place, I have never ever managed to forget the way you looked at her and the fact that you will never ever look at me the same way. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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