I once told you that you planted a seed in me — a seed that you’ve since watered and tenderly cared for with love and compassion by teaching me things I didn’t even know I needed to learn. I always told you that my soil was faulty and beautiful things couldn’t come of it, but you wouldn’t give up on me.
I saw beauty in other fields and I admired them from the small window of my life; now I’m watching that field grow in my heart. A beautiful and vibrant field of sunflowers with joyful petals that glisten and glow in the light to bring a smile to other people’s faces. Other people are now enjoying my field from the small window of their life, some of them with a little bit of envy, but most of them with so much excitement. And I can’t blame them.
We fell for each other by a complete act of fate. Sometimes I can’t wrap my head around it. Every time I’m with you, I feel like I’m walking on a cloud, like my insides are going to explode from happiness. I feel safe and content and whole. It’s seriously cheesy stuff, but it’s genuinely how I feel. And these are feelings that for the life of me I never thought I’d have. And now that I know what it feels like to love like this, I don’t ever wanna lose it. I don’t ever wanna lose you.
You managed to bet on something hopeless and somehow find a way to give it hope. You did all that by giving me space to break free from the ground on my own, but also by supporting me when I didn’t feel strong enough to do so. You did all that by choosing words of kindness even when I didn’t deserve them. You did all that by being patient with my soil till it was my season to shine. Even when storms came along and risked our beautiful field, you covered and protected me instead of leaving me there to rot.
Sometimes I ask myself, Why me? Why did God choose to give me a second chance at love? How did I get so lucky? I don’t think I’ll ever be able to answer that. But I think God was preparing you for me, and me for you. And I think He was also trying to teach me that there was nothing wrong with my seed; I just needed to grow in the right soil. That is what I’ve found with you.