You are there. You’ve been always there for others.
You never care if you have tons of school work to do, the fact that you don’t want them to feel alone is enough for you to set aside everything you’re doing. It doesn’t matter if it’s late at night and you’re already falling asleep or if you’re in the middle of your class and your friend need someone to talk to, you’re always willing to put in effort or even meet them halfway just to listen to them vent and give them the comfort they need. You are always so full of encouraging words that you wholeheartedly give to others, even when you barely have them to give to yourself.
You have a good heart, indeed. There are times when you feel so overwhelmed by helping others in whatever they’re going through and there are also nights when you cry yourself to sleep, hating yourself and thinking why you can’t just be heartless. When you’re so used to being nice and kind-hearted, you can’t help but expect them to be like that as well.
Whenever you’re the one who vents about your own problems, you’re expecting the kind of treatment you are giving and when it is not met, you feel disappointed. But you choose to understand because you know that not everyone has the same heart as you and you keep reminding yourself that you shouldn’t expect anything from anyone because it will always lead to disappointment.
You’re not into the “treat people the way they treat you” saying, because you are not that kind of person. You always see the good side of every person you care about. There were moments when you feel hurt and upset by how insensitive they are when it comes on your own feelings because you know that you wouldn’t hurt them the way they hurt you. And although you sometimes feel invisible and unimportant to them, you still don’t have the courage to stay mad or to be cold-hearted, even though you may want to be. You can’t live with the idea of leaving them alone nor resisting them when they need you because you know how hard it is to have no one when you need it the most.
Having a good heart can really put you in situations you never thought you would tolerate. You just prove how strong you are as a person and how beautiful it is to be empathetic. As Katherine Henson said, “Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness.”
So darling, don’t you ever regret all the good things that you did for them. It’s having a good heart that counts.