Ever since the day we stopped talking, the day you said enough, the day you said you had to find yourself first was the day I lost sight of who I was.
I started to question my worth, if I was ever enough, I even found myself doubting the people around me, it was hard for me to trust again, to open up and let people in. This was me after that day and quite frankly I thought I’d get over it by a month or two, but no, it’s taking me almost how many months to a year before I can completely be where I am today.
Today, I can proudly say that I love myself more than I was before us. I knew I loved myself enough that time before we even had anything going on, but this time around the self-love I have for myself is even deeper.
To control my emotions when I need it the most, to not be persuaded easily by people, learning to finally say NO, to start dreaming big again, to not be afraid to fail, to meet new people and learn their perspectives, to simply try new things out of the ordinary, to question the things that triggers my curiosity, to learn new hobbies and instruments, to gain confidence in all things that I do, to invest and build relationships that will last and most especially to give myself time to grow and enjoy life.
Yes, it took me quite some time to finally give up on the idea of us but now I can say I’m loving the idea of me starting again and grooming myself to be a better version of me. Thank you for being part of that, thank you for breaking my heart, it was a much needed NO for a better ME.
And now I just want to let you know that wherever you are right now, whatever you are doing, whatever relationships and whatever dreams you are chasing, I hope and pray that you are happy as well… because I know I am.
For where your treasure is, there your heart will also be and I found myself the most priceless treasure that not a single person can take away from me and that is self-love.