I’m not writing this out of spite or because I hate you. Before, I did, a lot.
But I’m writing this now because if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t realize what I truly deserved. When we were together, I thought that I had the whole world behind me and I was truly invincible. I believed that we were the ideal team and that nothing would ever tear us down. But after a rough couple of years, our path hit an end.
I really thought that you were the one for me, and I loved the feeling of being yours, even if it was only for a short while. Everything with you was perfect – the way we naturally clicked, how easy everything came around you, and how free and safe I felt with you. When we were together, I forgot all the troubles going on in my life at the time, and when it came to the troubles that I couldn’t shake, you were there for me and helped me through.
I really did fall hard for you, even though I didn’t mean to fall as hard as I did.
The last thing I want to do is to let go and stop trying to win you back, but it’s for the sake of my own sanity. Thank you for the nights you told me that I was worth it. Thank you for the times you would surprise me with my favorite foods. Thank you for taking care of me on nights that I was unable to. Thank you for being my number one fan through all of my competitions. Thank you for meeting my family, they used to love you. Thank you for some of these memories that I’m finally forgetting. Thank you for loving me.
I’d also like to thank you for the life lessons that you taught me, especially self-respect and self-worth, which I thought were the most important.
I finally got it in my head that I need to have enough respect for myself, to know when to collect myself, to let go, and to stop chasing something that will never happen.
I still miss you at times. The old you, of course. I don’t really know who you are now, as I’m sure you’ve changed. Thank you for showing me that one-way attempts at fixing something will only result in that person getting hurt even more in the end. Thank you for hurting me. The healing process obviously hurts and it isn’t something that will heal overnight. I’m going to be stronger than before once I’m healed.
Thank you for showing me that bending backwards for someone isn’t always enough to keep them around, and that people will leave if that’s what they want, no matter what you do.
Surely, I will always miss you and you will always have a piece of my heart, even though you said that “I’m only a distraction to your goals.” After all of this, I don’t hate you; I could never hate you. I want us to be civil and I want to see you succeed, to move on with your life as I’m doing with mine. And I really do hope that you find happiness and whatever it is that you’re looking for. So, this is goodbye, and good luck.