You Don’t Have To Be Afraid To Let Them Go

There is fog on the outside of this house, of this car, of my heart,

The world through my eyes is full of smoke and fog, I can see shapes in them, they look like you, disappearing into the oblivion, running through life, like circles of fire, always running from everything you ever wanted,

Including me, oh baby, I wish you would just stay for once,

There is sunlight outside the house, outside the car, outside my body, on my skin, on your photograph on the dashboard, on this road that is taking me to see you, there is some space for clarity in my thoughts when the sun is high up in the sky, but as soon as it’s dark outside, it’s dark inside too, and in that darkness everything I try to forget comes forth, and at last I have to face all these memories that I’m no longer supposed to have.

It’s always changing, who we are, who we aren’t supposed to be, what doesn’t change who we were, you amd me, we were both in love, at the same time, at the same time, who broke first? Who looked away first? You saw the oblivion, you wanted it, but I only saw you, and I wanted you,

It’s always changing, the world, sometimes too fast for me, I need to hold onto something soon or I might get swept away, and we both know it’s not each other, we’re drifting like two boats unanchored to the shore, floating away to different oceans, I want to say goodbye, but I still can’t meet your eyes without crying.

That’s why I’m on this journey, to find who I am right now, and maybe your oblivion would be one of the undesignated stops on the way.

I hope I see you once again, to come to terms with the fact that life is unpredictable, and I don’t have to be afraid of anything at all.