I’m Not In The Mood To Try To Put The Pieces Together Anymore

I’m not in the mood.
I’m not in the mood to cry again.
I’m not in the mood to feel pain.
I don’t want to be broken.
I don’t want to remember how it all went down,
how everything went into destruction.
I don’t want to look back anymore.
I don’t want to picture how anything could’ve been different if I would’ve taken a distinct path.
I don’t want to think about it.
I’m done trying to put the pieces together.
It’s like a puzzle.
I can’t find the one piece that’s supposed to give me the answer.
And that’s the thing…
I need to stop looking.
I’m not in the mood anyways.
So, I’ll just let it find me.