Everything You Taught Me When You Left Me

I have this belief that everyone we meet in this life serves a purpose to teach us lessons that will make us better people, and when we have discovered this lesson, their purpose is done.

This is why I have accepted the fact that you and I are now done, because I have learned not only one but so many lessons in my life since I met you.

The first thing I learned from you is how I wanted to be loved. I wanted to be loved the way you loved me—with so much adoration, admiration, and adventure. I loved the way you loved me despite that short period of time we shared. As crazy as it may seem, but it was the love I felt I was looking for—from the way you would look at me to the way you would listen to my stories to how you would try the scariest things just to be with me. How you kissed me after learning the worst parts of me. I will always be thankful that I have experienced this kind of love. A love that I know was too strong yet too wrong.

I also learned that it isn’t a matter of how long you’ve known each other to measure how strong the love really is. It’s a matter of how much you needed one another during the days you spent together. How deep the connection was during the moments you had. How many risks and dangers you were willing to take, even if you were uncertain of the emotions you had. It’s never the years that could test one’s love but how you strongly feel for each other, and no one can ever feel and say how true and deep the love is except for those who have shared it, even if you’ve had each other for just a while.

Lastly, I have learned that not everyone you lose in this crazy world is a loss. At the end of the day, we all get what we deserve, and I know I deserve someone who would not only choose me but who would also fight for me. It’s not your loss if someone chooses someone else only because it’s the easy way out. It’s always easier to stay within your comfort zone, within your security blanket. I have realized that in this life, not being chosen does not mean not being the right one—the one who is better, the one who is truly lovable. You’ll be thankful later on that they have saved you a lifetime of misery by leaving you behind.

There are so many things we could learn about love, and we learn them the hard way. This is probably one of the reasons why I am thankful for this experience, because it has taught me so much when I thought I was just losing a part of me. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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