Why I Chose My Best Friend Over You

God and Man

Let me start by saying, I do not regret it. I do not regret choosing her over you for even a minute because what she and I share can never ever be replaced by a love as temporary as yours turned out to be. I call her best friend, but we both know she is truly my sister. When she and I were six years old, we used to chase butterflies together and sang together. And at sixteen, we saw each other through our first heartbreaks. We took on cliquey, mean girls and stood up for each other in ways I don’t think you could ever truly understand.

On days when the world felt like it was going to crumble on us, it was just her and me standing tall against the oncoming storm, hand in hand and she has never ever let me down. When I lost my job, she was there for me. When she lost her mother I was there for her. When my so called ‘fake friends’ alienated me from my social circle, she was willing to go break their noses, when her boyfriend cheated on her, she had to hold me back so that I didn’t maladjust his face. Not once when I have called her crying has she never had time for me. Not once has she ever let me down when I needed her. So when you told me you didn’t like her because she was too much independence and wildness for you to fathom, when you told me I had to choose between you and her, I chose her so easily, I barely skipped a beat.

Because the truth is, boys like you do not understand what its like to have a sister you actually got to choose. How without being blood you become family. How on days when you are deeply depressed you know without having to think three times who to call when you are like this. If you did, you would have never ever made the mistake of making me choose between you and her, just because you do not like what she represents.

But the biggest reason I chose her over you was not just because of the love we share. The biggest reason is that even if she has not liked someone in my life, she has never ever made me choose. And in my books, when someone tries to make you choose between them and someone else, you choose the other person. Not someone who tries to control what people you are allowed to have in your life.

At the end of the day, I will always choose the sisterhood, the bond, the soulmate connection she and I share over boys like you. TC mark

Nikita Gill

Nikita is the author of Your Soul Is A River, a book about healing and becoming whole again.

Your Soul Is A River

“Love a soft person. The ones who are positive, even in the worst of circumstances. Someone whose strength is not in bravado, but in their quiet. Someone who is strong for others because that is what is needed in that moment. Someone who is the moon that soothes instead of the sun that burns. Someone who sees the very best in people even when you think they aren’t worth it. The kind of person who always wants to do the best for those they love.”
—Excerpt from Your Soul Is A River, by Nikita Gill

“I bought this on a whim to read as I was resting for the night, and I do not regret it one bit! Everything about the poetry in this book is amazing, heart breaking, and soul searching. It will lift your spirits on your darkest days. I want to thank the author so much for writing this, as it’s something I will be rereading a lot! Always remember, everything about you is important. You matter.” —McKayla

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