After all those dreams that would never be, she finally woke up. And now you’re losing her.
She will no longer talk to you. She’ll no longer message you. No more initiating and prolonging conversations or asking about how you are. No more typing and retyping words in hopes that you’ll find some interest. She’ll no longer try to make you smile when all that it is doing is take away hers.
She will no longer wait. No more waiting for the time that she’ll see you again. She’ll no longer wait for your name to pop up. No more waiting if you’d remember that it’s her birthday and if you’ll ever notice that she’s not okay. She’ll no longer wait for you to ask how she is.
She will no longer expect you to reciprocate – will no longer expect you to be the friend that she thought she needed. It’s unfair and wrong for both of you, she realized that now. She finally understood that no one can force someone into staying. She would stop clinging to what you were, she’ll no longer see you as her hope.
She will no longer try. No more trying to be the person that you need. She now knows that she can never be that friend, but still she hopes for you to meet one, someone. She hopes for you to achieve all that you want ’cause she still believes that you deserve it. She still hopes for your happiness.
Perhaps you might not even notice but you will no longer hear from her. You will no longer be the one she thinks of to share her stories with – good or bad. You will no longer be the person she remembers when a certain song plays. You will no longer be a constant thought in her mind.
She will no longer be there. She will no longer be your friend.
You already lost her.